New year is a time when most of us reflect on the year we have just had and begin to make plans and targets for the one to come. I am not one for resolutions as I feel that if you really want to do something you should go for it then and there instead of waiting for a particular month. Yet, saying this, last year I was two months into Emma Inks and began to see an increase in my stats and social media following, lured in by the addictive buzz of new followers, interaction and invites I set myself a few targets.
One year on I have hardly hit any of my dream numbers and, honestly, I do not care.
This bold statement might seem like a coverup for my failure to grow as much as I initially hoped for but really it’s not and that is because my blog has given me so much more that I ever thought it could, even without hitting big numbers.
My blog began as it was the perfect place for an introvert like me to express myself without the risk of actually interacting with people. I was in control and could say exactly what I meant instead of the garbled nonsense that usually comes out of my mouth in real life. It was a way for me to stop hiding in the shadows and be myself even if no one else ever saw it. There is no way that I ever thought that this place of private solitude would become the catalyst for stepping out of my comfort zone.
My confidence levels have had huge ups and downs; a brief history to put this tale in context: when I was little I was wild and threw myself at every opportunity, as a teenager it was knocked out of me by bullying, backpacking by solo I remembered what it was like to push the boundaries and be myself again, at university I struggled with mental health issues and felt lost once more. Then I moved to London and what I like to think of as the recovery period, a happy time but one that mainly relied being supported by a crutch of people I already knew. My social life revolved around the friends that I had had for years as I did not feel brave enough to reach out on my own.
Little did I know that Emma Inks would be the vehicle to drive me forward out of my comfortable bubble and allow this shy, socially awkward girl to go out in the big city alone, meet groups of people and actually love it. Of course my blog is not a miracle worker, I still suffer from depression and anxiety but due to the people I have met virtually and in real life there are now more days where I make it out of the door, which for me is a major plus.
Saying that the numbers don’t matter would be an over exaggeration because many of the opportunities I have been able to take came from me having a following and I appreciate every person that takes the time to read, like, comment or watch my goings-on and random ramblings on the Internet. What I am trying to say is that in the last year my blog has given me so much more than targets and has opened me up to a whole new world of inspirational, kind hearted and unique people who have, without even knowing it, given me a confidence and vitality I forgot that I had, which to me is much more valuable than figures could ever be. That is why this year my targets are going to be focussed on having more fun and adventures which, hopefully, you guys will enjoy keeping up with.